"Raw, real and hopeful"
–Reader Review
Most families have dirty little secrets, but some families have dark, shameful ones. Brooklyn-born identical twin Jillian Miller assumed her family had neither, but at 18, after losing her virginity, she's diagnosed with crippling depression and anxiety that would stay with her for thirty years.
When her troubled twelve year old daughter enters therapy for her own issues, Jillian takes her first pain pill. She was 41. It would sent into motion a chain of events that would force her into the depths of addiction, and uncover in rehab her own so terrifying that both she and her sister had buried it long ago.
Seven-pill-filled years later, she decided to experiment with something as controversial as it is curing. Cannabis. It begun to help her in ways she didn't expect, and took her on a journey that she'd never thought she'd take. What follows is her story of hope and healing, and her willingness to be a voice of trauma, addiction, and recovery.